by Sarah Raymundo
Perhaps one of the unexpected things that have come out of Ericson
Acosta’s political prisoner status is the fact that Emani Cricket -his
only son- has learned to play the guitar so well. Someone or else
something must return what this boy has lost to the fascistic ways of
the U.S. Aquino regime. This for Eman has turned out to be the guitar
chords of songs that Eric had written singlehandedly or with the radical
cultural crew. It was perhaps his means of finding a better way with
Eric who has ceased to return to Manila since he was captured in Samar
in February 2011. Since then, not a single hearing of his case, no word
from the Department of Justice, nothing at all from the state that took
him away from his wife, son, friends, and the movement that he continues
to serve.
But one Saturday afternoon before the
end of June I wed my time with Kerima’s, and found ourselves with the
Cricket in his room, on a double-decker. While the mother was hell bent
on finishing an important piece, Emani and I got busy with the junior
guitar which Eric bought years ago out of his savings from a small
stipend that full-time activists receive on a regular basis. Not the
best guitar I’ve laid my eyes on. But Emani’s hands on the digital
tuning machine from Tito Ruel is a magical clincher. I played the
monumental intro to Blur’s Tender, claiming it to be one of Eric’s
favorite songs even when I wasn’t sure that he shared my obsessive
liking for it. After playing the first stanza, I gave the guitar back to
Eman. He then played from the top, and no other piece had any edge or
significance, for me anyway, and at least for that moment.
Fast
forward to Sunday, July 22, 2011, Ericson told me that Tender is one of
his favorite songs, and that he and Eman should jam sometime. I
hurriedly marked Calbayog Subprovincial Jail as one of the places where
we loved like children, a place much like the University of the
Philippines back in the 90s when it felt like we knew each other
completely before even beginning. Around half an hour before that, I
sent Raia a message and told her how this short travel with Bomen from
the hostelry to the jailhouse was making me so anxious; I wished this
transportation they call the multicab will fail to give me a chance at
this vicinity. It was like travelling to the edge where emotions might
go haywire and irretrievable.
But the entrance to
the jailhouse was smooth. We were welcomed with courtesy upon our
mention of “Ericson Acosta.” “Are you his sister? No.” I thought Eric
and all the other prisoners are in another building other than the one
which housed us for a while, and which reminded me so well of the fact
that we have had left the sovereignty of ivory. I must have been swaying
from side to side carrying two backpacks, and a shoulder bag which
contained Judy’s surprises for Eric (copies of the Philippine Collegian
and other relevant university papers, Yes Magazine, Starstudio, a book, a
note, and a few things that I had put in, stuff from me and from other
friends). Bomen brought Eric a copy of Jun Cruz Reyes’ newest book,
Amado, to be launched on Friday (yes, the one from Calbayog gets to read
it first), and of Omeng’s Lagalag.
Eric suddenly
appeared like some sailor landing from a cruise--poised, genteel, and
with the swagger that is unmistakably his. Part of the reason why I was
apprehensive in seeing him that morning around 8 o’clock was that our
coordinator failed to disclose the identities of his visitors for the
day. He doesn’t like that. In prison, he says, he completely has no
control over anything about his life. If there are matters or affairs
that would affect him for the day, and if these are very well within the
friendly radar of the movement, then it should be something that will
commit him and his visitors. He wants to know when to wear his best
shirt, when to use conditioner for his long hair, and for whom is he
making all that fuss.
That circular darkness of
the void was not in view. In no uncertain colors did he paint his
stories but red. How will I ever catch up in years to discover the pride
that Eric has lived through in being with the people of Samar? But he
tells of many wonderful stories in a tone so generous, it was almost an
assurance that they are ours, too.
Of course there
were tears that flowed from his eyes as I was holding the camera that
recorded his thoughts on the week-long hunger strike of political
prisoners nationwide. Each time I see a dear one in tears, I become a
very old woman whose tear glands have all dried up. That is my body
welcoming Stalin and begging him to stay. And I don’t think I owe anyone
a fucking liberal irony when it all comes down to some kind of an
anti-Wall Street Corporeal Occupy. Eric requested another recording of
his message of gratitude and solidarity to those who have supported the
cause to free all political prisoners in the country. Tears were shed
(his very own, one more time), and I almost hated him for my
awkwardness that smelled like macho shit. He could only say “Close kasi
tayo kaya naiiyak ako eh.”
Eric for me is
definitely one of those significant Moseses who have led me to the
promise land. But unlike Moses, Eric gets into it himself. Eric has his
own Moses in prison. Moises is an old man who has become one of Eric’s
students in a literacy program that’s been running since he got into the
jailhouse. Moises loves to read English pieces, he would askcEric to
translate every single word he struggles to read. He never had visits
from family. He was always out of money. This had been the reason for
his low status in prison as he would be the one begging for food,
smokes, and what not from the other prisoners. When Eric came into the
jailhouse, he offered himself to be his sidekick. He pledged his loyalty
and services in exchange for food and some money. He was baffled when
Eric told him that they will share money and food minus his personal
services.
One day, Moises son visited him to ask
for his blessings. He was about to marry this girl. The son left with
the promise of coming back with his fiancée, and a feast that will feed
all the prisoners and the jailguards. For the first time, Moises will
have an advantage, he will not to beg for food but will be the reason
why there is good food. And just because he is a father despite himself.
Here is a son, suddenly all grown up, a most welcome stranger to
Moises’ life, the same person who asked him to be a part of a very
important decision he is about to undertake. All dressed up for the
occasion every day for a week, Moises quietly waited to give away his
fatherly blessings. That could have spelled endless banter and tough
teasing. To Eric’s surprise, the usual badgering among prisoners never
took place.
Finally and independent of him, Moises
has gained the respect of his fellow inmates through the stories of
fatherhood and the beginnings of family life he shared while waiting for
his son to come back. His lessons were too precious to be mocked at a
time when his greatest expectations failed, and were to mean nothing if
amnesty were to mean anything at all to the imprisoned.
I
am completely secure about my friendship with Eric. But I do get
jealous when friends tell me about new people they have met, people who
amuse them lately. I am certain that Moises is now one of Eric’s best
buddies. To Moises’ amazement and confusion, a portrait of him with all
his tattoos has been sketched by Eric. It was something that Moises
could not explain. Nobody had ever looked at him in ways so faithful ,
so painstaking, so folksy... it kept his mouth ajar for a while. But
Eric revised the tattoos, and turned them into images of Mao Zedong and
some political slogans. Moises confirmed recognition understanding of
these revisions on account of his political discussions with Eric. But
he strongly asserted that such revised portrait is somebody else. He
did not speak to Eric for a short while. That is how I know they are
equals.
I did not know whether to tell Eric that
Bomen and I will be back for a radical chit-chat sometime soon.
"Sometime soon" has always been our deadline for his release. With us
when we got there was a motion from Eric’s lawyer to have him undergo a
medical check up for his failing kidneys. The hearing for this urgent
matter is supposed to happen in Calbayog this coming Friday. I need to
tame the wildness of it all: minding deteriorating organs, racing with
and against time, dressing up for freedom, gearing up for stalemate,
being there. Steady and steadfast, like always, like Eric.